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Unrelenting

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Based on photos by Alex McKee AKA Muchlikefalling on deaviatART. Photographer 2008 - 🖥 Graphic & web designer
Adult Kinky performer (dirtysocks ) on onlyfans in 2022 owner of Louvel House Candles & Wax Melts @thexandermckee on instagram and twitter
Orlando FL

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s͟a҉n͏t͞i k̵a̛b҉o҉o͜m̨

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Based on photos by Dennis “Deimy” Malvaceda 2020   on Tumblr, Twittter and Instagram. 2022  Singer / Artits.  Onlyafns @dennis.deimy.miaw
Huaraz /  Lima, Peru

The Nightmare of jealousy.

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S̷͟a̶n̨͞t͠͡͏iK̀͏a̶b͢o̢o͘͞m̀

An unfathomable chasm

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Based on photos by Jonathan Matthew Casino AKA Matty Murder on Myspace and Vampire Freaks. Photographer 2008 @matt_casino
 CA

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Based on photos by Tyler “Torture” Gage   2008 Model on deviantart, flickr and other, sites
Knoxville. As 2022 Sells shirts. @killtylergage @thegaypsychic

He wont be seduced by fantasy

Santi Kaboom!

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Certainty. I wish life would teach him there is no such thing.

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Based on photos by My Digital Escape.

Jhonnie Guilbert - Kyle David Hall. Youtubers

@JohnnieGuilbert Jhonnie guilbert.  Singer
@KyleDavidHall Kyle David Hall - Filmmaker.

Soliraryfreak

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Based on photos by M.(Миха) Teddy on VK 2008. Self Described Utraconservative. Poet. Mena, Russia. 

A bohemian house

Metaphoræ

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Based on photos by Gui Coelho Arcanjo
Circa 2010 on meadd, @coelhitos and @mateiformiga
São Paulo, Brasil

where cool people do cool things

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softKore

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He looked Devine and pale.

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Based on photos found and curated by Lexxi Starr On Flickr. Taken from Buzznet original model Unknown. CIrca 2009 .

#softkore #scenekid #emoboy


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Based on photos by Максим Флоров - Maxim Florov (?) Circa 2012
Russia.

They didn’t want me there

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Sometimes you feel have to go back to move forward…

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I raised my voice

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Based on photos by Alex - Countii on Tumblr Circa 2013. Softwere Engineer. UK

Which seems counter productive.

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Based on photos by Kyler emerson murray Krunk - @kylerkrunkk Circa 2009. Los Angeles CA ?

[Ask me for silence]

Rationally, why would I need to revisit… the past.  its locked out. Inaccessible to all of us. 

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[not being good enough for anyone]

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Based on photos by Lexa (ADN-B on DeviantArt) Circa 2009
Model : Alexandre and Sean Photographer 
@lexaone Quebec, Canada.

Specially when there is no wound to heal. 

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Based on photos by Affect on VampireFreaks
Circa 2009. Stockholm Sweden.

[I guess is my fractured state of my mind which won’t allow it]

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Only revenge. 

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Anyway, I woke up, sweating, in anger. ashamed. And so, so sad.

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Based on photos of unknown model. 

And that is why going back is scary

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Based on photos of david1388 on vampirefreaks Circa 2009

Fuck the world. But really I’m the one fucked.

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Regrets 

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The time for being great is now… And I’m procrastinating

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Based on photos of Model Louis David-Andary on Flickr.  Glen Arbor, MI

Mistakes

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Based on photos of Andres Velez (Andres Gorgeous) Circa 2008 on vampirefreaks. Medellin Colombia. 
@ztigma Photographer. 

[Simply feels the days have gotten shorter]

And I expect a lot of angst for my "professional" image when this project starts… because there is no end in sight for it.

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[This feeling, of not getting things done, has been with me forever]

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Based on photos of Valery Tretyakov ? Circa 2012 on VK. Moscow, Russia.

I will burn it to the ground.

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Based on photos of Valery Tretyakov ? Circa 2012 on VK. Moscow, Russia.

[This feeling, of not getting things done, has been with me forever]

It’s time to pretend.

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[Taught me to think that way]

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Based on photos by Seanen Middleton circa 2010 on Flickr @seanenmiddleton
Manchester, England

Again. 

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Based on photos by darknessfalls*  circa 2008  on IMVU 
Manchester, England

[The artists, the regrets]


I want to be blunt and I want to be subtle. 

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[The artists, the regrets]


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Based on photos by darknessfalls*  circa 2008  on IMVU 
Manchester, England

I want to be hardcore and want to be reasonable. 

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[I want to be better but the world wants to be worse]

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Based on photos by darknessfalls*  circa 2008  on IMVU 
Manchester, England

I want to be kind and also not give a fuck. 

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[Don’t make that mistake]

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Based on photos by Chris Dakota AKA Casper Keith circa 2008 on Flickr. Spy Adult Model on onlyfans @Casps1 - CaptainSpyrokid on Tumblr
London, England

I want to fix the past, but stay in the present, think of the future

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Based on photos by Unknow, an  edit with the Lycirsc of the song Therapy by All Time Low

[Don’t make that mistake]

I want to nurture myself, and burn out like sparklers in the winter. 

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[Stay behind me… ] 

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Based on photos by grobsb circa 2013 on Twitter. Kinkster from Montreal, Canada

I want to be scary but adorable. 

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Based on photos by Chris Brightside Gacilica circa 2014 on Facebook and Twitter . @F4NG from Texas USA, Musician.

[That is what I should’ve done]

I want to be vengeful, but zen

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[That seems appropriate]

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Based on photos by Unknown on Flickr.

I want to be snobbish in high platform shoes and trenchcoats while being laid back under the sun

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Based on photos by Unknown on a fake VK profile

[That seems appropriate]

I want to be skinny, emo and punk. I want to fizzle out in the rain and be soaking wet in the night. 

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Shot after pics of Sergey Malyshev on vk ?

[I should be drinking, just forgetting]

I want to be myself but admire it as if I was someone else. 

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[Being alone is not enough. ]

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Based on photos by Tyler “Torture” Gage   2008 Model on deviantart, flickr and other, sites
Knoxville. As 2022 Seels shirts. @killtylergage @thegaypsychic

They told me this was a phase

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Based on photos by Lii - Liicifer, Lee Dalton -   2008  on Myspace, flickr and other, sites
Knoxville. As 2022 is musician aka Effisay and part of a project known as Phaedra.  shirts. @liicifer on instagram and ello. 

[Being alone is not enough. ]

But its really only a missing stage

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[Being alone is not enough. ]

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Based on photos by Mark Oberst from Munchen, Germany - AKA Marc Mutinous Photos Submitted to Base.de foto contest  circa 2013

Like the baby kangaskhan, 

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[But I am also a whiny little bitch]

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Based on photos by Paweł Auditore AKA xXxTROOxXxt from Poland  circa 2013

It... this... all of this...…
Should have been
A photography cocoon…

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Shot after Photos by Ashley Mauk of Mikael Drobny (@mikaeldrobny)

Actor based in New York

[But I am also a whiny little bitch]

a metamorphosis state

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Shot after Photos of unknown  origin, circa 2012?

[But I am also a whiny little bitch]

its A transition, a graduation

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Shot after Photos of unknown  origin.

[But I am also a whiny little bitch]

a hybrid stage of masculinity where, gender, aesthetics and emotions take center stage. 

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Based on photos by Alex McKee AKA Muchlikefalling on deaviatART. Photographer 2008 - 🖥 Graphic & web designer
Adult Kinky performer (dirtysocks ) on onlyfans in 2022 owner of Louvel House Candles & Wax Melts @thexandermckee on instagram and twitter
Orlando FL

[Need a warm comforting place to cry]

feelings of depression, rebelliousness, cockiness, come afloat.

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Based on photos by Mikael AKA Shir-is on Vampirefreaks.com Circa 2008

[Need a warm comforting place to cry]

What This performance is…

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Based on stock vector illustrations by Paola Canzonetta AKA @Pcanzo, Circa 2010.

[Need a warm comforting place to cry]

pErfOrMance
EMO

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Based on photo of Sascha Sun @xSaschaKunx on Instagram, Circa 2017.

[I am again lost for words. exhausted]

What is it really but a sticker album of unexperienced tropes and cliches. 

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Shot after product "Emo Male 2000s Costume” sold un Creative Costumes Australia.

[Why are you tempting change]

Is about tribe belonging? Subcultures? Is it about sex? Beauty? 

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Shot afterShot after art by sh3rryb3ar on deviantart circa 2014

[Why are you tempting change]

I think of... frustration. Of being fucking trapped. Unable to scream. Unable to handle

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Shot after photos of Daniel Bucci AKA Cesar Spencer Terrio on Flickr and as forgottenx on DeviantArt. Circa 2009. Born in Canada, Currently a photographer and Graphic Designer Based in London, UK. @cesarrst on Twitter and Tumblr

[Oi, that hurts]

There are boys. Who were first. 

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Shot after photos of @psycho.black.soul on instagram circa 2019

[Only the strong, cold ice that covers million-year-old regrets remains.]

Who did this first. It’s hard to know who... but someone made this a trend. 

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Shot after: Photos of the band Breathe Carolina circa 2008

[I shall keep on digging deep, deep into the core,]

Boys who were doing makeup, who were dressing up. And most importantly. They were taking pictures of themselves. 

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Shot after: Photos of Matthew A Curry, AKA Matty Face on Myspace and VampireFreaks. @scene_king200 Curretly does /Fitness/Music/Nutrition @mattcaries89 From las Vegas.

[I am awake]

Low and high pivotal angled shots, one side bangs, skinny jeans, eyeliner, arm warmers.

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Shot after photos of Héctor Gabriel Torrecillas circa 2008
on DeviantArt
he's now crushing it as a wedding photographer.  From Durango Mexico

[Distill it in pictures]

photography as the art of killing the moment. 

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Shot after photos of Héctor Gabriel Torrecillas circa 2008
on DeviantArt
he's now crushing it as a wedding photographer.  From Durango Mexico

[Would you?]

Of stepping out of the experience and killing it.

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Shot after photos of Annette Skye of Luke Nugent circa 2007 Posted on DeviantArt. Luke is now a Visual Artis focuses in fashion and AI. @lukenugentand and @annetteskye on Twitter. Based in London. UK

[Rimbaud was my age when he stopped writing]

 No photo of any experience was ever shared by the person holding a camera. Think about it. 

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Shot after illustration by Irene Strychalski AKA @renieDraws on Instagram and Twitter. Current Illustrator at Marvel.

[But I would sell my soul to be above it all]

If photography is the death of the moment, these chronic self portraying is akin to a thousand suicides. 

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Shot after photos of Henri Bénard AKA RiriCheshire. @Henri magben

DJ - COMPOSITEUR - PRODUCTEUR
Directeur Artistique Techno Event. From Paris France

[I am afraid of acting]

These kids are not living they are Portraying

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Shot after photos of Johnnie Guilbert, Musician and Youtuber, San Jose, California

[I am afraid of acting]

They are zombies, they are dead in every single picture.

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Shot after photos of Zach AKA xReptarRavagex over at gaiaonline.com circa 2008

[The software is broken]

And in their eath, they were gestating.

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Unknown.

[It's been abandoned, but I still use it.]

And I use this term that is what these pictures actually depict, like an ultrasound, they show something was being built. 

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